Saturday, December 8, 2012

Another Baby?? Are You Crazy??!!??

People often ask me, "Will you have another baby?" The answer: A definite “No”.
Caring for Taylor consumes so much of my time that the subject of a second child is out if the question…for now. And then even when Max and I begin to consider the possibilities we have to be very mindful of the risks and implications of having a second child.

For starters what if the very genes that caused Taylor to miss Chromosome 2q37 were to be passed on to our second child? Secondly, with all the care that Taylor requires would I be able to dedicate adequate time to the new baby? Then of course is my fear of being able to handle a ‘normal’ child. Sometimes I watch healthy kids play and am amazed at just how fast and active they are.

Funny how things are though because last week when I was in the hospital with Taylor tending to what I always do as my therapy crocheting a nurse came up to me and made a comment, "I still have my baby blanket from my mom, and will give it to my daughter in the hopes that she in turn gives it to her daughter." I couldn't believe how that one conversation completely affected me and what tears it brought. I guess it struck me at that moment, you know, the thought that Taylor in fact may not be able to have kids. I’m just like any other woman out there, and the thought of not being able to have grandkids really saddened me. So, I told myself then “Yes, I do want to have another child. Why not?” Then my mind was made up.

So sometime, far into the future (lol) I may consider a second child. Max may not understand this, but years from now I may give another baby a shot. Besides, I think Taylor would make a great big sister!





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