I used to think life was about ‘looks', and the car you drove, the brand name ‘stuff' Louis Vuitton, Prada, all that fancy stuff, but it isn't. Now, don't get me wrong all of that is very nice and deep down it is stuff that I very much would enjoy, l but I've come to the realization that the meaning of life is so much deeper than that of material things. I've learned that the real meaning of life is that first step, that first time a child accomplishes a difficult task, something she has worked so hard to do. Many a time I hold Taylor tight in my arms and I promise her the best life possible when I myself don't really know what's in store for her.
Life by its very nature is crazy and surreal. Think about it, we are born, and making the best of what we call "life." So, we come into this world, we learn, we grow up, we make plans. As for me, I had so much planned out, I knew what I wanted, and I'd saved for a life of luxury someday. Then, in the blink of an eye the perfect life I anticipated was replaced with total chaos. It was a very scary thing, still is at times, yet in this one year I learned more about life than in the other twenty-six years of my existence. During this very critical time I truly learned what family, love, joy, and happiness is really all about. I discovered that people are still good, and that people still care. I learned that in all reality God had given me the most precious gift I could ever ask for.
So, I prepared for what I thought was life, but you do not determine your future, not really. You can prepare and plan, but that does not always mean it's going to go the way you intended. One morning my life was headed in a direction and before I knew it God changed gears and handed me a new plan.
Here I am now watching Taylor as she sleeps peacefully and I think to myself, what if Taylor was "normal"? Would I love her any differently? Would I care for her more? Less? No! It would make a difference, of course, it would not change how I feel about that sweet little girl, nor would it ever change the way I love and care for her. Friends: Plan then plan for the unknown and if that day comes your way and your life is forever changed trust that it is God's will.
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