The OCD's

Many of us can say we have a quirky OCD or pet peeve like cleaning or having the toilet seat down... but, what happens when your life is literally revolved around it? I often wonder what is going thru Taylor's mind as we witness daily her constant OCD's that she truly cannot control. Imagine hearing about the same thing over and over and over - roughly 200 times a day for weeks on end. It is funny and cute at first like, her learning all about pool vacuums but, then just becomes exhausting. Or imagine trying to deal with a behavior that is harmful but, the more you react the more it is done. This is our daily life. Taylor does not feel pain so when, there is something she can feel she tends to keep doing it excessively.

Currently, one of Taylor's OCD's involves biting her finger nails completely off. It kills me inside and I get so many - you should do this or that or this and well.... I wish it was that easy! Right now we have to distract her and hope she stops but, we also have to accept that when she stops one OCD she will be onto another and we pick our battles.

For a while Taylor's OCD was to say the "F" word... and I mean in every situation but, sadly I preferred it. Why? Because the alternative was having Taylor digging into her eye or digging into open sores. At least with the language it was a word and would not be harmful to her body. So, I took the judgement, the stares, the comments, the parenting advice, because I knew what the alternative was. We have since gotten past that OCD but, I know it will be back. They always come back.

So, sometimes when you see a child and just wonder, how does that mother allow that? Just know, that it might be her only option at the time. We are so quick to judge parenting skills and decide who is better but, forget that all of our children are different and unique in their own special ways.